light all your cassettes on fire

thhhhhhat's all folks.

Sun, 03 Oct 2004 03:19:59 GMT

good day all.

add me if you want, i already added some of you. ♥ beatsofscience

love,
arianne.

brushes

Sun, 03 Oct 2004 01:34:37 GMT

I almost died TWO times today.

coool.

not!

its a shame that

Sat, 02 Oct 2004 01:33:24 GMT

i got hot pink sheets, i did poetry in class. i finished my paper on time. i slept 9 complete hours. i met the tattoo/PEIRCING guys, hella cool. i got funny shoes that i need to draw dots or hearts or something lame on. i got a paddington bear sweater, a skirt and a vote shirt. ulises said he had 2 kids, haha ok. im tired. i cant drive with flip flops on. my mom bought momento/lost in translation/dogma/pirates of the carribean/oceans 11 plus a few other movies so im not allowed to complain. i have to start watching movies now. hey its friday. im starting to prepare for actual tattoos. ill be full of sleeves before i know it.

the dog is sick :[ tomorrow louie should take me to go with her to the vet.
my throat is itchy.
kmarts kinda neat when no ones there.
i love hanging out with annabel during school also ulises.
im looking forward to the other debates coming up.
i shouldnt read hororscopes anymore.
i still need a "job".
for the take home math test the cute math guy is in our group, neat.
i saw legs, now im inspired.
i still want to see, MUST see shaun of the dead.
for once, i have a free weekend.

random thoughts, how great.

notorious!

Fri, 01 Oct 2004 02:32:14 GMT

lately all ive wanted to do is play drums in a punk rock band. uhh to bad i dont have drums or a band. i forget i have no rhythm or coordination, its ok i can still dream. i have a new best friend, until i fire him cause he's kinda a terrible person, right. yes.

the debates were pretty funny.

the bruise on my knee isn't going away. ouch.

tomorrows friday, yay.

stupid laws.

Thu, 30 Sep 2004 04:53:32 GMT

I lack update worthy material. I find the stupidest things funny. Im glad Charlene called to see how I was, we both giggled when I mentioned seeing Josh working at blockbuster. hah. I need to make a trip to goodwill or savers or something. I went to jc penny to 1. waste time and 2. look for that guy in my math class, okay not really but that is annabel & I's goal. tomorrow I plan on finding out what department this guy works in.

last night samantha woke me up, i was confused. im sorry i didnt call you back hobag, i was sleepy. i need to work on my english paper, nicole you inspired me.

i get my yellow livestrong bracelets in 3 to 4 weeks! hah.

i will make friends with the tattoo parlor people, yes its my goal.

okay, goodnight.

good intentions

Wed, 29 Sep 2004 00:24:34 GMT

My recent urge in self loathing has taken a new angle. I over analyze everything to the point where I don't remember what I was analyzing in the first place. I seem to be neurotic in a sense about some things. I leave most things at the not knowing stage rather than taking the initiative and finding out for myself. This journal has morphed from a daily blog of events to the one place I nitpick all my faults and let the entire world see. When im nervous I ramble, I seem to be doing that a lot lately. Im not very social and I need to feel comfortable to talk. I long for people I can trust and lately there have been few. I wish I could wake up one morning and be a different person. I have different ideas with different people. I still feel like moving and not telling anyone. I still long for philosophical talks concerning matters that have nothing to do with me. Where exactly did all these thoughts come from? Why am I not satisfied with life as of late. I ask too many questions but I never seek answers.

Right now the not knowing is worse than anything.

unraveling

Tue, 28 Sep 2004 15:29:16 GMT

im protesting the world.

starting...now.

edit: i had a weird dream and louie, let's talk.

up down turn around please don't let me hit the ground

Mon, 27 Sep 2004 21:17:59 GMT

Last night I was playing with fire, luckily I didn't get burned. It took a lot of smoothing over to get my mommy to love me again...im kidding, how could she stop loving me, im great. Psh.

Im a hopin' and im a prayin' everything works out. Buddah, don't let me down, ok?

the liars are fun.

<3

how long until?

Fri, 24 Sep 2004 20:21:01 GMT

Everything should be okay. I should stop being so negative. Life doesnt suck at all, nope not at all. Sleepiness will go away with a nap. I know what I want now. I still need to drop my history class and finish those forms. Tonight I shouldnt be tired at all. My phones kinda lame oh well. Jazz to rock was easy.
Ive heard this song many times, but I just realized it now. I love this song, thank you Albert<3

mixtapes should be coming up, also, i must send out massive amounts of mail this weekend. sorry guys, its coming fo sho.

♥

don't push my buttons.

Fri, 24 Sep 2004 13:15:45 GMT

its 7:11, i dont know why im online. my mom got me up at 5 am. i went to bed at 1 am. but its okay, the circumstances were good. yesterday i got into a w r e c k , and that was pretty lame. everyones okay, except for going 'Man that blows'. the cable guy is kind of a freaky movie. i burned two cds worth of 90 day men, good stuff. my sister takes her sweet time getting ready. when is class again? oh TGIF! im pretty tired, the test in jazz to rock is gonna suck, i can feel it. all blues men..i dont remember who led zepplin is, just kidding.

ramblerambleramble.
<3

where do we go when we're wasted, where do we go when we are?

Thu, 23 Sep 2004 01:43:13 GMT

Im listening to TSOL like its 1999. I think I might want a new journal, somehow therecord_skips feels old and tired. I dont even know, its just the internet. Sugarplum is a cute word. I think im beginning to enjoy being 18. Theres not much I can do but I didnt do much to begin with. Im acting more like a girl, its horrible, in a heyyoureagirlgreatarianneGREAT kind of way. I have a new cell phone, I guess if you want the number just comment..or something? I dont know, ive only used it to call my mother. Tomorrow im going to hang out with Annabel after math class. She's pretty great. Im rambling. I want school to end quicker, when's halloween? Or thanksgiving? I need a job, that tutor thing should work out, god knows I need one of those paying gigs, no more of my smarts for free, fools. Hey soulseek is kind of sucking, I just want to download one band, its not even THAT obscure. ha ha.

im sorry i cant write eloquently enough for the internet.

happy birthday alex de la garza <3

p.s. this is the best cd ever i love you tsol, oh i do.

dear livejournal, you're one years old.

Wed, 22 Sep 2004 04:26:50 GMT

I ~~enjoy~~ LIKE clean sheets.

stunt double madness

Mon, 20 Sep 2004 01:54:04 GMT

My baby lotion imitation brand makes me feel really dirty.
I dont know if that's a good thing or not.

Im in the mood to play pool and see my BABY, i wonder how she's doing. i hope she's not chewing up louies head or something, even though that would be really funny. i laughed at the dumbest things today. i really want 100 dollars just for being on a psuedo samantha version of mtvs boiling points. haha i cried after that. no really.

my hands are still sticky and i still smell like imitation sex.

sigh.

p.s. im still all smiles, woahh

and im giving up combing my hair, cause thats for suckers.

and my hair is soft,

onions

Sat, 18 Sep 2004 22:21:22 GMT

Dear Goat, thank you for posing so gracefully. You made the zoo trip exciting.

Love,
Arianne.

The zoo was cool, paying 5 bucks to get into the zoo, was not. I saw the sea lion exhbition thing, they dont do "Tricks" just exercises. Im getting a cellphone, yay? Monday or Tuesday. I got into a car accident today, not a real one though. I just tapped the gate, sheesh.
I really need a hug, im feeling weird.

edit: I forgot to mention that John kicked me in the shin! and it hurts
and i have to go to walmart. UGHHHHHHHH.

we got a new dawg

Thu, 16 Sep 2004 22:22:06 GMT

,

,

,

Thats our (being LOUIE and Me and Annabel & Jaymie). Jaymie, Annabel & I decided on Chamomile for a name because 1. its hella cute and 2. the dog was found outside of there. Anyways.

We're getting her shots this sunday and a collar and everything.

<3

drugs & alchohol ruined my life.

Thu, 16 Sep 2004 06:20:33 GMT

Im so boring sometimes. Im so interested in the lamest things and totally think that pickups on cellos are more important than how fast a train is going from point a to whatever.

We went to the coffee house. Annabel, Jaymie and me and LOUIDDDDD. The owner finally kicked us out and we totally saw this puppy! Gosh, we love it.So we ADOPTED the puppy cause she had no tags and we're going to assume no shots. So we're going to totally make this dog ours. We (as in Louid & I) decided to share custody of the puppppppy. We need a name, and deeohhgee is not a name.

Bed of Roses makes me cry, oh im lame. But only in a "hey what happened Christian Slater, you used to be hot in a kind of creepy stalker way".

Im still pretty sick.

p.s. I forgot, APPARENTLY Johnny Ramone died. ouchh :[

also, i feel really weird, tomorrow i better be feeling great. i should go visit the dog.<3

pantera sucks.

Wed, 15 Sep 2004 16:27:34 GMT

Okay so im in the computer lab, note to self. go to class more often. American government almost killed me today. I was so tired (and I even went to sleep semi early). :[

today im going to sams with my mom when i get out of class. cat food and laundry detergent, check and mate.

i emailed the guy next to me (in the computer lab), i still don't know his name.

lately things have been going good.

pantera & metallica suck.

good day everyone.

colorful.

Tue, 14 Sep 2004 23:39:29 GMT

dear arianne,

you told me you liked all colors.
and i took you seriously.
at least they're not neon.

love, monica.

p.s. i like your hair.

i scared that kid away

Tue, 14 Sep 2004 17:04:09 GMT

It seems the computer gods have decided to break my computer :[

So, uhm until I fix it. You (as in a few) of you should call me.

<3,
arianne.

p.s. im updating at the schools library. it took me like 5 minutes to figure out how to use the internet here. i dont wan't to go to math, either does annabel. my throat feels icky and im thirsty. i should get some JUICE.

EDIT: i sorta fixed it? i dont know, still call me. cause phone calls are neat.

i cant tell you from the drugs.

Mon, 13 Sep 2004 21:58:14 GMT

When I was six I wanted to be in the circus. I used to dream about being a trapeze artist. Now that im 18 I realized im afraid of heights and I hate the circus.

I really want freckles.

Soulseek should work again. I ditched school today. I feel more productive now. I love new Jimmy Eat World. My throat kinda hurts, will someone bring me juice? :[

My moms on her way home, soon. I missed her tremedously. I should have my dad pay for my history book. My sisters auditioning for a play. I think she might be adopted.

My wife agrees with me, over most trivial things. People should yell at my sister more, she's mean.

I need a haircut and I need to badly pluck my eyebrows. Tonight, for sure.

The pediatrician is coming, he should fix me. Yes.

im tired.

you can really get it onnnnn

Mon, 13 Sep 2004 01:26:29 GMT

I almost saw the sun rise this morning/late last night. I blame long nice conversation for that. I met the pediatrician, he's 40, I was off. He has one of those blasted livestrong bracelets. Im jealous, jealous because I want one. I want to direct my own movie. Its getting a little colder. Time for filming. I wonder when the leaves will fall off. I always liked that time in El Paso. My mother returns tomorrow night, my grandmother, tonight. Im not allowed to get mad at trivial things anymore, from now on I focus my anger on bad drivers and global warming. I always argue with people but I like my current arguments as of late. They're fun and its okay cause he lets me win cause he's too nice. I stopped using names. Thats pretty improper.

I want to meet my mexican wifes fish, Pepe & Gordo. They love me even though they've never met me.

cough.

french homework.

Sat, 11 Sep 2004 23:48:31 GMT

Dear boy of my dreams (literally),

Im waiting patiently for you. You were so fake I think...no I KNOW you're real. I had the best dream with you in it. You enjoyed fake psuedo gay humping, you drove your car like a madman and you had nice hair. Not to mention you were quiet. You also helped me climb the gate/moat of the castle. I dont know where the castle came into play but...frankly, this should happen between us cause we're soulmates, or at least you seem wonderful.

If you're out there, please do not hesitiate to contact me and or fake gay hump me.

love,
Arianne.

P.s. I suck at flirting/talking to STRANGERS. The semi decent looking kid at buckle literally stopped me just to talk about music. "The second you walked in I knew you liked good music". I didnt even ask his name. Next time...next time.
My throat still hurts, my pediatrician cousin from Mexico..Juan Luis is coming tomorrow, im gonna get a freecheckuppppp yay.

p.p.s. I almost forgot, I got my "new" cello today. Its missing a G and a C string and I need to give it a decent name. Im going to see how much its going to cost to replace all the strings. :LKDflkjasgd NEW CELLO!!

and the plants and the animals eat each other.

Fri, 10 Sep 2004 20:05:08 GMT

Ive fallen into routine. Every day I do the same thing. I talk to the same people. I think about the same things. I am the exact same person I was yesterday. When I fall out of "routine" I think about it for days. However positive or negative the experience may have been, I relive the experience until I no longer can take it. I either seek out new routine-breaking actions or I sink slowly back into my routine and remind myself not to make that mistake again.

p.s. Im breaking routine tonight, at least I think so.
p.p.s. I think im getting out of my bad mood, slowly..but surely.
Also, I think I might go to the Minerpalooza thing at UTEP cause I think seeing jupiter sunrise for free is neat..yeah.
Thank you Louie!!!!!

pixelating

Thu, 09 Sep 2004 21:01:02 GMT

Im always wondering what angle is the best. I woke up sick, well ive been sick. I woke my sister up at 5:45, just like I said I would. I forgot my "phone" on my moms nighttable/stand thing. I walked out of math..again. We have a take home test, is anyone good at math? I don't eat tortillas, no one believes im mexican, true story. Oh well.
I have a sore throat. Whenever im ready to talk to you, you're never around. The second I dont want to tell you anything, I see you.

I dont know what im doing anymore. I just don't like feeling this way.
Maybe certain words shouldn't bother me as much anymore. Im beginning to understand why people move away. I miss my mother, I need money fast. The guy at taco cabana stole the number 26.

For once, I want things to go right. Just once.

edit: i realized what's wrong. ive been listening to the ~~lamest~~saddest music lately. so from now on, none of that. Unless somehow its imperative. Or you know, I remember im fickle.

he just WHOO'd

Wed, 08 Sep 2004 21:54:08 GMT

Timm completley took me out of my bad mood. Thank you, because you're amazing and I figured it was one of those impossible feats.

<3